Do you hear that?

It's raining, and it sounds beautiful.

Well aside from the Lord of the Rings The Return of the King that is currently playing in the background.

But it is still raining and it sounds beautiful. LittleMiss is sleeping. Ludwig is curled up next to me. And I'm about to crawl into bed. This is my last day of being a lazy mom, a depressed mom, and a messy home...renter. I've been very reflective and inflective as of late. Quite a few Exciting things have taken place, a few I can't share and a few I can.

A Hurried Post

This is hurried for a few reasons, which equates to that pile of 'to-do's on my plate.

As all of you well know, I am a single mommy. I took time off of college to create a bond with my beautiful daughter.

Now it is time for me to get seriously extra serious, get back in to school and secure the best future for my wee-one that I can. Folks, family, friends, people I don't know that well personally, please pray for me.

I am going to be learning to live on a strict schedule. I will be applying for a part time job (as in a second job), keeping my current full time job, and returning to school this coming January. I will keep up my blogging ( or trying to catch up and post at least 2 or 3 times a week.

This is incredibly stressful and I have yet to finish applying for a second job and school(mostly because of the great debate of which school will I be committing to).

I have tons more to say but so much on that plate of to-do is calling my name.

325posts...well 326now

Wanna take a guess at how many of those are drafts?
37
How...exciting? Sad? Lame? Pick your adjective.

I remember the time when I was blogging 3to4 times a week. Good times. sort of.
But I am trying my hardest to get back into the groove of things. So get ready for all of my random posts from before and ever more to come.

Exciting things are happening. I have TONS of photos from events that I need to get off my phone. Not to mention so many things that I need to update you on.

:) Heres to you kid. For keeping up to my inconsistency.

Paint Chips

Usually people use these things for selecting paint colors for their home, or a few pieces of furniture. And thanks to Pinterest, a whole slew of crafts can now be imagined or reimagined with them. 

A mixture of both is the reason I have so many. But tonight they served an even greater purpose. You see it's late here in the southern mid-west, and my LittleMiss was put to bed early so that she would stop being a cranky monster. Unfortunately my neighbor decided they wanted to do some yard work as the sun was setting, which did nothing to help the recently put to bed little baby or my sinus head ache. This absolutely did not help my already foul mood. 

Have you figured out how this story ends?

No? Okay, I'll fill you in. 

LittleMiss and I shared some almond-yogurt with fruit, finding ways to wear her out and make a few memories. One of our biggest accomplishments this month is walking, we're up to oh-gosh about 10steps before she falls on her bottom. I cheer her on with each boom, uh-oh, and owie. Amidst our living room tickles, adventures and giggles she found the paint chips mommy had had neatly packed away. 

Slowly she pulled a few out and put them away, sort of.
Then I pulled a few more out to show her the colors, and she put them where they had previously been. trying to coax her into having fun, I started spreading them out.

"Mom, mom what are you doing? You're making a mess."

Then I started getting a few giggles when I tossed them in the air. I wasn't getting the desired messy effect, so I started "makin' it rain".

That opened the flood gate of giggles.
So more of a mess had to be made, more colors explored.
I handed her a few cards and let her throw them. While it was indeed a dangerous act and I am surprised I survived with no battle wounds she had fun.

I coaxed her into crawling into my lap so that she could have more of a throwing range. A bit more dangerous for me, yet it gave me a beautiful closeness and a chance to take her hands to show the funnest way of dispersing the paint chips.


My Paint Chip Princess. 

Even though my neighbor originally {unintentionally} put me in a particularly furthered bad mood, my night ended well. It made me feel like a more accomplished mommy, spending time with LittleMiss, making her laugh with {I would like to think} a little bit of learning.

Yes there is a mess to clean, but it's the best mess I've had to clean yet.

You are my Future, You are my Legacy

Oh my little one, how I love you.

I love your tantrums that end with you giving me hugs, patting my back telling me you're done and it's all okay. 

I love your random giggles at...well sometimes I honestly have no idea why you're laughing. 

I love how much you eat. 

How long you sleep. Or how little. 

I love your dance moves. 

Your love of music. 

Watching you learn and discover things. 

You amaze me every day. You frustrate me regularly. And you make me melt even more often.

But sometimes I just do not know how to handle you. I'm sure more often than not there is a real reason why you are screaming at me. Although I have a feeling it's mostly because you are tired of doing whatever it is we are doing: driving, eating, coloring...the list goes on...

For that I apologize, I promise I'm trying my best.

I want nothing but the absolute best for you. As smart of a girl as you already are, I can not wait to see what you become. My focus is your safety. So while you may think I'm a mean mommy for not letting you stand up in your highchair it is simply so you don't fall.

Be patient with me my little love, as I am learning every day to be the best mommy I can. 

It's always so fun to watch as you learn. To watch you slowly grow into your own person.
I'm will always be proud of you. 

I think I missed you guys

I finally have internet at my new home!!!!

I may be a little excited.

I never thought I would look at these glass jars and miss how easily I was once able to fill them with Breastmilk for my LittleMiss. 😢

Eleven Months My Love

Eleven months

How has time flown so quickly and how have you gotten so big??

You crake all over. While trying to pull up everywhere. You'll be walking in no time. 

Your vocabulary is going, well your baby talk vocabulary. I can understand when you try to say 'thank you'. 'Dat??!?' Translates to 'that?'

Dahdahdahdah translates to 'mommy'

my love you are handling this move so well. I am so very proud of you. 

You experienced your first Fourth of July and you rocked it. At one point you tried to reach out and grab the lights. The booms never scaring you. Surprisingly the fireworks our neighbors shot never woke you. 

You been in two swings and they almost as cool as sliced bread. 

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And tonight my love you fell asleep on my shoulder as I rocked you back and fourth in your new room. One arm wrapped around me as the other was swaddled up. 

Forgive me because sometimes I forget you just wanted to be held and rock. 

But remember, always remember, done days I need you more than you need me. 

Oh hello new home!!

That is right!! 

I just finished signing the papers on my very own (one step under) big girl home!! It's a cute little duplex, oh my gosh I could go on and on about this thing. I'll be moving in next week. 

I can not tell you what a relief it is to have found a place. I can almost breath again. 

I did the walk through yesterday. It still has a few things that need to be adjusted, but I am so excited I get to plant flowers. 

I have so much to do! I'll update later

Oh Hello There

Hi! My name is Corrin and I am terrible about blogging. I try, I really do. But with being a single mommy, working a lot of hours, being easily distracted (it's bad it really is...), and finding some great new friends, it's been hectic. I do have quite a few posts up my sleeve (aka a lot if photos I want off my phone.) 

I don't even know where to start, aside from being pretty darn stressed everything is going well. The stress is a side affect of indecision and trying to find a house (or NICE apartment) for LM and I to move to. I have been literally on the verge of crying over it for a few days. I hate moving anyways. 

LittleMiss has started crawling!! And pulling herself up on things. Ohmygosh u love that kid. 

We took this picture just yesterday. 😍😍

She worries me just a little. She's weighed 16pounds for quite a few months (at least four). But she eats like crazy so I have no idea what it could be. 

That's all I've got :/ just a quick post to let you know I haven't forgotten you.