Just a quick {update}

Things are good.
I feel good.

Really though, this morning has felt... like... like I can breathe! Of course the simple fact of it being a Wednesday and not Tuesday or Thursday helps quite a bit.
I can breathe.

Read that again, just one more time; okay make it two.
The second time read those three words slowly, and as if you yourself feel like you can finally breathe once everyone in the dog-pile gets off of you and you finally have your breath after running as hard and as fast as you could for five minutes.

Do you understand now?

The feeling is so relieving, and exciting.
and terrifying. 

'What? Girl, why you sayin' it's terrifying??' (that's you asking me)
Because that means that at any moment the creeping fog will come in full force. Maybe slowly, maybe fast, maybe lightly or maybe so thick you can't see through it. That is why I try not to think about those moments where everything feels great, I can breathe and the mornings are smooth.

I have, however, been attempting to pay more attention to what I'm feeling these past few days so that I can provide a decent analysis for those of you reading. Over the past few days I've been feeling better, lighter if you will.

  (The weather is beautiful today, which also helped to keep my mood up. It's tremendously important to get out for even a few moments; especially when the sun is shining and the wind is beautiful.)

I've been taking vitamins regularly, incorporating supposed depression-fighting foods into my diet, as well as making it a point to ride my bicycle again. This morning there was even enough time to wake up to do a quick routine of morning yoga. (which I'll be doing again this evening as I've noticed my hips are getting a little tight.)

(We all know one of my strong points is confidence and over exaggerated vanity. Which is a bi-product of hiding my depression for so long...  Yet with that being said, it's important to find beauty in yourself. It's important to be silly and goofy.)

Unfortunately as hard as I try to keep some sort of routine going in my life it doesn't seem to fully stick. It's there, it's just not... exceedingly consistent. I'm currently seeing a handsome young man whom I find a little bit of comfort in his routine; it's actually a huge help for me. It's comforting and relaxing to know that I can rely on the knowledge of when I will hear from him. Yes it sounds silly, but it's true. I'm making a large conscious effort to build and maintain a set-ish schedule and routine. Apparently routines are a big help in our battle.
Thus far I know that keeping 2-3calenders is a big help for me staying on track. In each of them (well I try to keep them all synced) my attempts are to have most of my day scheduled, of course with room for movement.
For example I have:

• Morning yoga
• Shower
• Wake-up/Start getting LittleMiss ready
• Leave
• Study Time
• Class.....

and so forth... Keep in mind each day is different, this is a simple rubric I attempt to keep.

This all leads to....

Rule Four:
Establish some sort of a routine for yourself. Read my above routine again if that gives you so help. Keep it simple and short to start with. Maybe wake up every morning at a set time, follow it with morning reading/yoga/coffee/tea/walk what have you. Maybe take lunch at a within a set time frame everyday (such as between 1130 and 130, giving you wiggle room should something come up to hinder your leaving time). Maybe, just maybe your routine needs to be reading or journaling for thirty minutes everyday. 
Don't worry if at first it doesn't stick. This is all trial and error, do not, do not  stress about setting up and find your routine. Starting small is always easiest, always best. By starting small we are able to find what really works for us, what truly fits the best. 

;

{14months}

Where oh where has my little babe gone?

She's grown to big for her summer-time clothes.

She understands big words and (mostly) follows direction.
Favorite Foods: Apple.
Most enjoyed past-time: Walking.

But doing baby-version of sprinting is really fun as well. Oh and one of my many proud mommy moments: LittleMiss is now giving high-fives.

She occasionally understands her colors.

And her vocabulary is growing so quickly.

It's been an interesting month, learning new forms of self-expression, meeting new family members, learning new boundaries. Lets not forget the new personality quirks.
Walking around, pretending to talk on the phone.
Sharing, or at least acting like she is going to share...then taking the food away before mommy gets a real bite...
Cleaning.

It's been so amazing watching my little doll grow into a walking-talking-thinking toddler.

And I am so full of love for her.

Manic Monday

It is quite a rainy day here I NWA.

I love it .

I would have loved it more if my relief would have been on time to work, and LittleMiss hadn't been so terribly fussy when I finally arrived home. It is okay though, she is going through a lot. Her  canines are about to bust through, she's going through a leap, and it's a rainy day.  Just like me she gets sleepy easy on rainy days. So much so in fact that I had to lay her down early {which is I am able to type this up}.

Hopefully you are ready to be bombarded with several long posts. I promise I'm trying to get better at blogging! If you are a parent you understand that finding time is not the easiest!

{Best part about right now: listening to Disney soundtracks, while the window is open and I can hear the beautiful rain falling down. The only thing that could make it better would be LittleMiss sleeping where I could actually see her.}

Alrighty! Get ready for a  few long posts!!!

Opening Shop and Baby Prepping

I have been terrible at posting this week! With about 10weeks left until SweetPea makes her debut I have so much to do!
I would also like to announce that I am opening a little shop on etsy!! Which means my post won't be quite as frequent as before. There is so much excitement from not only getting everything ready for SweetPea but also making things for the shop! This is something I have wanted to do for several years, now my daughter is a huge inspiration which kicked me into gear.

Quick Post

I feel like most of my posts tend to be done quickly and for that I do apologize. I don't have a lot of time today, but I did want to let you know that I have not forgotten my promises to post a lot more frequently. Which will be happening with in the month!!

Pregnancy Brain

I'm interrupting my slightly (planned to be) busy morning to send you some happy thoughts.

Cheap (pregnancy) Pamper

Everyone is addicted to Pinterest. Why not? There are tons of cute ideas, inspirations and how-to's for stuff you don't even need.

Girls we tend to go to the beauty tab quite a lot!! There are tons of ideas and such for us!! I love nail designs! But I don't like the smells of the nail salons, or the prices. I may not have a ton of polishes at home but I do love what I have!!

Angry post

So I am calmed down a lot more than I was about half an hour ago. Long story short I have had an interesting day at work so far. A member brought in some left over pecan pie and after the most interesting part of my night(not in a good way) was over I ate a slice and a fourth of another. I was already hungry and craving a cheeseburger. That craving I beyond gone.

I just want to go do a rum. A mile or half a mile whatever. Not only do I feel gross from all the sugar but I am still not the happiest. I am frustrated to no end.

I am also talking my self out of regurgitating the pie(gross I know I'm sorry) so when I get home tonight I will probably make myself sick on the apartment treadmill.

I hve a cardio addiction.

That's all for now folks. Sorry about such a bitchy post.

Rainy Day

Ugh! This is definitely a QUICK POST!!

I actually woke up early this morning and took time to love on Oliver and just relax a little. I also finished my 101 in 1001 list!! Finally!! This one will not be changed or altered it WILL BE COMPLETED. I know I've attempted this at least three different times.

But! Because it took me so long to finish my list I know have to hurry and get dressed. Which stinks because I don't want to go to work, I just want to cuddle up with Peacock and watch a black and white movie. And have Oli laying next to us. He is a big scaredy cat when it comes to rain and small storms.

SO either tonight or TOMORROW I will have the new updated version of 101 in 1001. I'm pretty excited.

Also keep in mind a few of the things on the list will probably be done two to three times. Depending. ;)

This past Weekend

It was so much fun!!
Saturday was a blast. I was supposed to meet my best friend Miss Oklahoma at her grandparents apartment to watch the hog game. Well I am just about to leave my apartment when I receive a text from Miss Oklahoma, she tells me that she has tickets for the hog game!! So we ACTUALLY went to the game! It was a lot of fun! It was my FIRST college football game! We went with Papa, and had a really good time(it was his first HOG game too!).

Miss.Oklahoma, Papa, Me!

Miss. Oklahoma went to get popcorn!

It's actually a rubber chicken!!

I ended up beating Miss. Oklahoma and papa back to Papa and Nana's apartment, and while waiting for them and watching an old seventies tv show with Nana, I fell asleep on the couch. It was a good... 15? minute nap!

i miss her already!!!

Then Sunday rolled around and I went to work....

i see you...

It was funny to see all the regulars come in and tell me they had thought I had quit. I think it's funny that they don't ask my coworkers if I had quit or not. It's just a simple question. 

After work I drove up to my mommys house and watched the Walking Dead with my step-daddy. It was a good episode! It made me mad(I stomped my feet on the floor) and I almost cried. I was also texting a friend of mine(PD) and Peacock(the boyfriend, it's a perfectly fitting inside joke name. :] ). It was funny because neither of them were watching it. So all they got were "WTF??" 's, and "OMG OMG OMGOSH" 's! I then preceded to spend some time with mommy after the show, she will NEVER watch the Walking Dead. 

It was a very fun night. I'm really glad that I am so close with my family. I hope you guys have a great Tuesday, DONT FORGET TO VOTE!!!

(I'm sure there is a bit of curiosity towards Peacock, and there will be a post about that soon.)

Hot Sauce (part one)

Yeah I may be seeing one of the best guys ever.

Pretty awesome so far

Soo today at this moment us pretty awesome.
At this moment I have gold stared!
I love/miss my doggy.
I had an AWESOME couple!! Best lesbians I've ever met. (not being rude, just starring a fact)
Last guest were in and out and very polite.

I also have a huge picture post due soon!!! Possibly in the AM!!

Gotta go! Have a crazy good night!!

Oh Dear God.

DISCLAIMER:

There is some (quite a bit) of cussing in this video.

(excuse my red-ness due to running up four flights of stairs.)

Quick Phone Post

Here I am again. At the pool.

I've had a few eurekas and revelations in the past two days.

It's time to act like an adult.

(more frequently)

Big girl pants go on and stay on.

Gotta go.

Fridays Fiasco.

Today has been interesting.
Probably a LOT more than you would guess.

Let me start with this, now I may or may not have told y'all, but I am on birth control. I used to have really bad cramps, starting taking birth control it worsened my asthma so I quit. Well my cramps have been getting bad again.
Not to mention I realized around noon that I am supposed to start my period today. But with the birth control I won't start it for another two weeks.

Hormone OVERLOAD.

Now back to my day:
I was conscious(ever so slightly) before 730. This is quite the accomplishment seeing as the night before last I didn't GET into bed until 230am. No idea when I actually fell asleep. Then I took my sleeping pill once I got home and walked over to a neighbors to say happy birthday. Such a great older gentleman.
Well I think I finally fell asleep around...1030-11ish.

My Gammy text and then called me this morning. We talked about how my parents used to be, how long they were together and after they split. It was very interesting.

I made a quick breakfast(reheated some oatmeal) and went to my patio. Well my new phone fell out of my pocket, the screen cracked and I just lost it. It was the straw that broke the camels back. I couldn't quit crying.

But on a happy note I bought roses! And will do a better post when I get home!!!

Mellows..The Rest of them...

aww the pictures. I really do think this the most pictures I've ever posted. but oh my gosh. DO THEY LOOK AMAZING!!! 

And yes that is a random photo of my breakfast the morning that I finished my BEER mellows. It is a long drown out process but it's worth it. My reviews of the 'mallows were amazing. I have definitely found my love of cooking and photography and decorating. Not gonna lie. I've been in an amazing mood lately. 

Oh and guess what!

I bought shower hooks!! I went from this...

to THIS!!!

I have TONS more to talk about(as always) but this is crazy long, so I'll leave you with your mouth watering. 

;)

Mallows??

This gal made some marshmallows tonight.
Crown-Mellows. :)

The batter tasted amazing. But I forgot something... The light corn syrup. Although I have no good excuse I will say I was slightly flustered by a friend of a friend.

But hopefully they will still be amazing. I know that the Beer (you did read that correctly...BEER)-Mellows will be amazing. I offer a bit of advice, Heineken, is very carbonated. This beer I would suggest leaving out on the counter over night.

I'll be posting the recipe after I get my reviews on it. ;)

Oh another bit of advice:
             A fifth of Crown is exactly one cup. (according to my measure-rs though..)

Here are some pre-pictures for you!!

Lookie! My NEW: Bowl, Candy Thermometer, TWO 9x13 pans, and blender!! eek!!

Sugar and Crown

Bubbly...

yumm..

I am so very excited. Not to mention next they will be covered in chocolate and pretzels!! *swoon*


Well....
I think I owe you a bit of a recap of this week!

I will be switching from T-Mobile to Sprint and getting the iPhone 4. No 's', just 4. :)
My mommy and step-daddy will probably join my plan.
I've decided I would like a short term room mate. (I have got to get back on my feet, and being financially screwed over isn't a big help..)
I went in to work to day for a few hours to get some extra training in. I had a good time, and was able to get some work done on work for work and school work.


I forgot to take my sleeping pill again...and tan... Not happy about either of those things. I think I'm just going to have to buy tanning somewhere...

I lost three pounds!! Although after these marshmallows I'll probably gain it back. But I will be going grocery shopping...sometime soon(getting low on the grub), and I'll be getting much healthier choices. I love healthy.


I'm a healthy-eco gal.


I'm also a bee fanatic. HoneyBees are amazing. Don't forget that.(I'll give more details later)



Ugh, I HAVE to make myself get some sleep. Night!!

( By the way, I wrote this whole post sitting on my counter.. It's actually very relaxing. )

Fantastic Monday

This had definitely been one of the best Mondays I have had in a long time. :)

With a huge thanks to...I have no nickname for him yet, but it'll be good when I do. Anyways, he's one of my closest friends. We had a Skype Date. It was a lot of fun. He managed to keep a smile on my face all day long, and I'm pretty sure he didn't try.

The weather was amazing today! Maybe one or two little fluffy clouds! Nothing like yesterday with our on and off down pours.

And because I need to fine tune my outline for my English paper this is about as long as this post is going to be.

I hope you had a great MONDAY and a great night!!

Saturday Spotlight

I know I've mentioned it before but starting next Saturday you can expect to see some Spotlights!! It may be local shops, it may be other bloggers or even some great etsy shops. Either way, they are going to be a ton of fun!!

Have a great Weekend!!

My Girl..

The hardest thing for me to do is let go of you..
But I know that you need more than I can give you right now.
You'll always be my baby and I will always love you.