Chilly Driveway Night

It's almost nine o'clock at night and I am sitting in my driveway. Car headlights still on, motor off. 

I'm tired but not sleepy. 

Tears are trying to run over the edges of my eyes. 

I just got off the phone with my parents who are watching my LittleMiss; who I am not exactly pleased with at the moment. The past month and a half has been a complete whirlwind and over all deep down I'm exhausted. 

The first night at my second job went great. I have a feeling I'm going to really enjoy it there! I'm excited for all the goals this job is going to help me reach. 

But it doesn't take away the fact that my parents are watching my daughter tonight, tomorrow morning, tomorrow night and Saturday night. Let's not forget they will probably watch her Sunday night as well as Sunday morning. It doesn't take away the fact that I am having to work two jobs to take of my tiny family (while paying off a "friends" debt). 

I can promise that tonight I will not be sleeping well. I will have at least one stuffed animal sleeping with me, a toddlers sound machine going and probably still wake up around 130(her usual 'mommy I want to nurse and play time'). It's amazing how much someone so tiny can meet to you. 

Ooh!! Look what I did!

I made a super easy really fun weekly wall planner. I found a good poster size frame at Goodwill for a few dollars, then sprayed it with some spray paint I had laying around. I have this thing about not just throwing away gift wrap because I'm 90%sure there will undoubtedly be an occasion to reuse it with no one the wiser.

Such a day came.

I love the silver dots, and it gave it the feel of something Kate Spade-like. 

I'm content. 

Currently I have the art piece hanging in my bedroom, I'm probably moving it to the kitchen soon. 

{14months}

Where oh where has my little babe gone?

She's grown to big for her summer-time clothes.

She understands big words and (mostly) follows direction.
Favorite Foods: Apple.
Most enjoyed past-time: Walking.

But doing baby-version of sprinting is really fun as well. Oh and one of my many proud mommy moments: LittleMiss is now giving high-fives.

She occasionally understands her colors.

And her vocabulary is growing so quickly.

It's been an interesting month, learning new forms of self-expression, meeting new family members, learning new boundaries. Lets not forget the new personality quirks.
Walking around, pretending to talk on the phone.
Sharing, or at least acting like she is going to share...then taking the food away before mommy gets a real bite...
Cleaning.

It's been so amazing watching my little doll grow into a walking-talking-thinking toddler.

And I am so full of love for her.

Do you hear that?

It's raining, and it sounds beautiful.

Well aside from the Lord of the Rings The Return of the King that is currently playing in the background.

But it is still raining and it sounds beautiful. LittleMiss is sleeping. Ludwig is curled up next to me. And I'm about to crawl into bed. This is my last day of being a lazy mom, a depressed mom, and a messy home...renter. I've been very reflective and inflective as of late. Quite a few Exciting things have taken place, a few I can't share and a few I can.

A Hurried Post

This is hurried for a few reasons, which equates to that pile of 'to-do's on my plate.

As all of you well know, I am a single mommy. I took time off of college to create a bond with my beautiful daughter.

Now it is time for me to get seriously extra serious, get back in to school and secure the best future for my wee-one that I can. Folks, family, friends, people I don't know that well personally, please pray for me.

I am going to be learning to live on a strict schedule. I will be applying for a part time job (as in a second job), keeping my current full time job, and returning to school this coming January. I will keep up my blogging ( or trying to catch up and post at least 2 or 3 times a week.

This is incredibly stressful and I have yet to finish applying for a second job and school(mostly because of the great debate of which school will I be committing to).

I have tons more to say but so much on that plate of to-do is calling my name.